Tuesday, January 2

Of Irrational Anger at Other People's Foibles

Why do I worry about becoming fat? I can't claim to be insecure, I can't talk about a childhood experience that left me emotionally scarred for life, abusive parents..not even one, a lust for all kinds of fatty food which triggers an alarm response in my system making me skip meals..nope. In fact I can't think of one concrete reason that would make Freud lean forward in his chair and rub his hands together.

BUT I can admit that I have a fear of fat creeping up on me, unheeded, stealthy, molecule by molecule, until one day I will be like the man who couldn't walk out of his apartment cos he couldn't fit into the doorway anymore. Maybe its my generation? Maybe its a symptom of how shallow a person I am (though I honestly have no hang ups with other people being fat)? Maybe the constant presence on the television of stick insects parading around, defining the way women have to look? I don't know.

I know in the larger context this suggests a serious social consequence of the media portayal of 'attractive' women, but sticking (in persistently self centred fashion) to my own narrow perspective, I have to confess that some days when I'm trying on size zero pants in AEO and they fit perfectly, I'm happy with my irrational quirk.

8 comments:

Obi Wan said...

Me 1st!!!!

Mein Gott, the backlog of stuff to be read on various blogs has become really huge in my absence. Sochna padhega!

Revealed said...

Welcome back, Obi. I know what you mean about the backlog! Almost felt like homework y'day :-S

Cloudy said...

SIZE ZERO???????????????? No way!

Revealed said...

@Cloudy: Hehe! Yeah! Really truly :D

Anonymous said...

Size 0??? Oh My gawd.. Here I thought that size 2 was a myth!!
Now I am depressed..

Revealed said...

@Sakshi: LOL! If it makes you feel better, it isnt fun to be IDed everywhere you go, and to have to show a godawful picture of urslf on a DL that everyone proceeds to scrutinize suspiciously!!!! Heh.

Sunshine said...

:D You know what, just like you, I have no problems with others being fat either - but I don't want to be fat myself. In fact, I shdn't worry abt that, because I'm actually slightly underweight - by 3 Kgs or so, but still, sometimes I worry too. Especially since I'm tall, I think I'd look like a giant if I put on weight :-)

Revealed said...

@SS: The funniest part of that is that I think the EXACT SAME thing cept that I'm short, and I think I'll look like a ball if I put on weight. Hehe. This REALLY does say SOMETHING about the effect of scarily thin pop stars/fash models on society in general, but I'm wary of jumping to conclusions.